update

okay,

so GOOD NEWS :)

______ talks like all the time to us now

we hang out with her after school (well not me, i have basketball practice) and over the weekends

and she is actually wanting to meet people now!

like Tuesday at lunch the lunch lady's daughter was suspended from her school so she had to hang out in the cafeteria and my friend wanted to go say hi and _______ volunteered to go with her. Also, she unfortunately she still thinks she's fat and ugly but now that we are actually close to her we don't feel bad nagging her about eating and taking care of herself. We've actually been able to get her to eat a few chips before. It doesn't sound like much but oh well, its the best we can do for now. 

hoping for more success :)

thanksgiving

how was everyones thanksgiving?

Halloween

okay, 

so for halloween we plan to first go see the movie "the haunting of Molly Hartley" i forgot the girls name but i know it comes out on halloween day. then we plan to go to our friends halloween party. then later we'll probably do some trick or treating - or we might just raid Wal-Mart! lol

what are you doing?

YAY!!!

SHE IS OUR FRIEND!!!!!!!

she says so, we say so. 

did i mention before that she doesnt talk muchh?

well she does more now! like she actaully participates in conversation sometimes noww!!!

wooot! A! talk about progress!!!!!!

ps. we're hanging out with her on halloween!!

dude this halloween is going to be the best ever!!!!!

this year its on a FRIDAYYYY

AND 

its a TEACHER WORKDAY so NO SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

im so exciteddd!! halloween is my favorite holiday

pss. October 15th im going up to VIRGINIA where we have our mountain house. We're having a family reunion and we will probably finally spread my old dog(pippen; died at 17(olddd!!))'s ashes in the graveyard memorial in the words we own up their. My Grandmother and Great Grandmother are both there. its so cool cause we put my Grandmothers ashes in a tree so its like rebirthing her as a tree. its awesome because we talk to the tree as her and everything. we are wierddd. butt i love her and miss her muchh.

okay so heres an update

i went and saw my therapist on monday and he has a worry that my friend may not be suicidal but anorexic, or maybe bolimic. but probably anorexic because she is convinced she is fat and ugly. i also mentioned that we have never seen her eat at lunch. never. she kind of just stares at us when we eat... unfortunatly no more news but i do think that she is doing better. im pretty sure she knows we are her friends. unfortunatly, it is my duty to report, we are the only ones that will take a second look at her. it is quite saddening how very judgemental everyone is. and it very much aggravates me to the highest level. for example, this year the new kid was a guy ive known since kindergarden, but he moved away in 2nd grade, and so we are really close but we are still in different social groups. and it makes me very mad when he makes fun or questions my friend. so she is a little different and she likes darker colors...its not going to kill him. 

but anyway, i cant really complain, i mean everyone gets judged

ps. so ive told my mom that i will go see my father but on one condition. and that is if my best friend in the whole entire world would come with me. so news on that shall be around eventually. lol

Social Studies Girl

okay, 

so i sit next to this girl in Social Studies, she seems to write a lot of poetry mostly containing things about how she thinks she is ugly, fat and that life is pointless so why should she live...

well she is a really nice girl and she is really beautiful not to mention like 20 pounds underweight. oh, she has failed 8th grade like 2 times now. 

me and my friends have been trying to become her friend. and she has been sitting with us at lunch for like the past week, but is that enough?

i really want to try my best to keep her from attempting suicide but i dont really know what more i can do.

please help and comment any suggestions that you have.

thanks

the feeling of life

le sentiment de la vie

the feeling of life

i started this blog just as a way to talk about my life, all ive gone through with or without my friends. Like being sexually harrassed by my dad. or having him ask to have his rights taken away then asking to see me again. i mean, the NERVE! and then last year helping my friend go through her fathers suicide and her having to be the first one to see him hanging there, white as snow... dead.

so thats what is coming your way.